S.O.S.
I was heatbroken. I never wanted to admit it to my friends but I was. By the stupidest boy ever that went from me, to better, to a dead end. I thought we would be together for the longest time, but I probably came on too strong. I apoligize Akon. For being the girl who broke the most stable relationship you ever had and I forgive you for showing me nothing but the side of you I wanted to know and making me see the rest of you once you cut me off. The rest of you was everything I needded to move on from your nasty ass self so I also thank you. You showed me courage and hope in admitting my feelings to guys, and you also showed me that I shouldn’t open myself up too strongly. I never really knew how to keep a relationship. I don’t really count on it. Because I’m sure there will be an end. Something I learned in that summer: was to never get involved in something new if you know you can’t deal with the ending of it. In with the new, out wih the old. The more you explore, the more experience you gai. I keep telling myself that, but I guess it’s because I was looking for that something. For help. A way to no longer have problems or dilemmas. But I was born with them so I ended up accepting them. I ended up accepting that I am not the prettiest girl in the world, that I am not the funniest, and finally thaat I am not the most memorable. I was a child of The Lord.
